nothing's left

Look at this. it totally describes my feeling now...

Fretting + confused! i nid a medium for ventilation~

I Hope that i wont do it again... :)

heeheeeheee!!! My studying plan failed again!

1. Suppose to meet Ting to study at bedok lib todae. BUT! hahas. life's juz a jinx. Both of us overslept. heheee. We postponed the time but, it rained. Thus, we decided to meet tml instead..

2. Suppose to study on my own. However, i did not study. spent my time surfing the net looking for good bargains to go overseas and looking for jobs oso..hehe. cant wait to work!

heehee.. so much of my sinful day! must start studying moi pc1432 los! :) muacks

time heals all pain.
I m beginning to understand this phrase.
I tot thru much and things appeared clearer.
I bear no grudges and hope the fwenship can continue.
I understand how *he felt that time and i m truely sorry that i din treasure.
If there were to be one more chance, if fate permits, i will treasure him like a gem, rare and precious that will be.
Be it wishful on my part that this would ever happen, but i will not do anything out of guilt or boredom.
If fate permits, it is that that will be done only on the basis of love... :)
It may not be *him again, but at least, i truely understand the meaning of cherish.
One more thing that i understand, one would only know what is the most precious after going through some pain.
Take it as an experience, a part of growing up. :)

Presenting! S205~~~

how cute~ pink is ah mah n blue is me!

Yeahs. It's good friday! It's a day spent with my JC classmates. We had a gathering just now at kia's place. BBQ session! yupyup...

Morning: Suppose to meet Pak at the hawker centre at 930 to collect the satays n Otahs but i was too tired. So i decided to go the Sengkang on my own. However! the satays and otahs werent ready for collection when pak was there. It ended up me collecting them b4 i headed for Kia's place.. Called loy at his hse when his mum picked up and thanked me fer the gift again :) .. i feel happie again! Loy was chatting with me on the fone when i was walking frm moi place to the hawker opp tJ fer the collection of satay n otahs.

Kia's place: It was raining so heavily when i headed for collection and then took a cab down to kia's place - the rivervale. MMm.. the alighted at some ulu place in the condo which is not kia's tower.. which i did not know which. Enlightenment: its Oscar Tower! He came down to the carpark and picked me up. Helped me to carry stuffe. He's nice :) When i reached his place, ray, pak, tat, jason, shi hui were already there marinating the food! :) nice guys aint they. Wells, its always the case for my class, the guys doing everything :) We went down to the club house after that to play pool and pingpong. I cant play pool, only played pingpong.. The saddest thing was that i cant swim cuz it's pouring...

BBQ: Went to set up the fire and started eating lotsa food after that :) heehee.. The food's good. Tribute to tat's mum fer marinating the stingray and squids! Yum! They brought vodka. I had some :) heehee.. hadnt taken alcohol for sometime. it tastes nice esp now? hahahs. oh wells. Then came amos, james, jon, liew ma, agnes, yuan n his gf! Happiness that is. So many people :p
As Liew ma, agnes n I were at the bench chatting, the guys felt that we are so pitiful cuz we dun haf food. Guess wad they did.. they were like serving us? hahahas. First was Tat, then Pak, Jason n then Kia.. hw nice can they get. But they are not my type cuz mongs will fer sure ask me to pick a bf from them! hahahs.. cfm de!

Home: Liew ma, me n agnes went off at abt 8? cuz agnes n i hafta mug fer our papers. Yeah lohs. sadness.... hhahaha.. it's a grt time seeing them again tho i din talk much to the guys. The topics just dun... link? hahaa. THe gals talking abt uni n the guys abt army.. LINK? hahas. ntg. NOthing abt the guys had changed. They are as playful, gross and rubbish! hahahas..

p/s i tink pak is good looking and kia is cute. hahahas. n i wonder y! heeheehee, purely superficial!

As We wonder...

I feel like swimming again. I tink it's an addiction! heehee...

Tom yam at Viet thai with loy today. The Tom Yam is super duper spicy to the extent that i cant take it at all. Goodness. I nearly died. I only like ate a wee-bit cuz its super spicy! I guess it's becuz i havent been taking spicy food recently. Too heaty le. Thankew for the dinner. I like it.

Nothing is more impt that fwenship. Really. I cherish them. Thus, i wont let anything ruin my fwenship with anyone. Yups...

Yeah! ur parents love moi gift. I love it when they are happie. n i wonder y. I guess it's becuz they are always so nice to me.. -grins- 2 lil bears with 13 pink roses! :)

Apart from the super spicy tom yam n moi stupid gastric. Today is generally a nicer dae cuz i woke up this morning with a smile instead. :) yeahs! It always feel better to give? heehee. 2 pretty bouncy ball-faced for u to make u feel happier cuz u gona move out of ur 'precious room'. heehee.

I realised something really impt todae. Not saying it out but at least i realised....

I and Mendy!




Before the BBq, it was TQ'06 debrief! so many hours that was!

Tq'06 BBq was damn fun. Really fun. We mixed around like never before. Food was good. People are nice. i really love it. I found a new er zi n niang. :) They are simply nice tho i used to dislike my er zi when tq juz began. wahaha! no secret abt that -grins- mmm.. i guessed the Jerry is damn hao qi fu, he is the 'proclaimed' Director of TQ'07! hahas. We had a newly formed clean-table-gang - singyung, siling and i! My er zi became the mopper + sweeper! damn farnie. Yan bin was trying to extinguish fire with the pathetic flow of water. hahahs! nua nua one!

Fwenship fostered, trust lost. An event that i experienced lots of emotions. Moral of the story, dun trust too much. U will get backfired. I always tot that i m cautious, my foot. A really big lesson learnt. Facades. DUn trust, dun open up. People are juz purely selfish.

Eternal Fwenship

I realised, a front is juz a front after all. Noone is strong, emotionally. Everyone gets hurt in one way or another. They put a front juz to prevent themselves to be seen as weak. M i making sense? i hope.

What i really meant is that, the meaning of 'not fragile' is not that u will not be 'broken' but a fact on how your level of tolerance and how you actually handle the emotional turmoils.

Ppl always sae that i am cold-blooded blah~ actually, i m juz numbing myself. As far as my emotions are concerned, i am really fragile too. Jus that i do not haf the habit of showing them out and inviting sympathetic glances from the people ard. Why do i haf to make the ppl ard me worry? nO point. too attention-seeking.

To ah mah, i may seem to be un-caring today, as in, i may not be the first to console u 2dae, but i noe that tts the best wae to console u? isnt it so. cuz i noe u will only feel better after crying. Silly gal. Noone is to blame. Life is like tat. U always appear to be so strong and objective whenever we talk, i noe that deep down inside, u r one with empathy more than anyone else. U feel for others a lot. i m critisizing u abt ur character or wad. In fact, this is ur greatest attribtute cuz i dun tink i can ever attain that. I love u gal. Be strong cuz nothing in this world can always go ur wae and u shdnt shoulder all burdens all by urself. :)

I wana gossip about sleaze here. hahahs. mmm.. i tink that she is really nice. I haven met someone who is as easily contented as she is. It warms my heart somehow to know that there is still a gal who feels happie juz by looking at her eye candies. hahahs. so ke ai rite. To her, i guess she is still waiting for a relationship but she is scared that starting one may juz ruin the image of everything. Also, guess that she wants to get her goals rite, studies first.

For me, hahaa. my goals are never rite ever since uni. Played too much, laze too much, think too much. Everything but the priorities rite. I cant wait for my exams to end.

Yups. hao la. time to webcast. sian diaos!

purple lilies of the nile!

This flower is also know as the flower of love. For every one that blooms, it carries a message of love. The white ones represent the love of the past, then purple represents love of the present. heehee

Orite. time to log off soon and i hafta write my presentation speech for tml! -grins-

Me, Lao Ban n Honeypie!


Monday, another monday.. ahahs

I had ssa2204 - Nation Building test todae. Apparently, i din study not really, or to be more specific, i din prepare sufficiently for it. Oh ya, i was studying for it and i skipped my tutorial! yups. Oh wells, was bz with TQ then haf no mood to study cuz of some other stuff. I am worried about you. ya.

I feel much freedom blogging now cuz i do not haf to worrie about anyone reading it. hahaha! oh wells.. this shall be a blog dedicated me and me only. yeah.

Had oral presentation today for my ES 1301 module. Mongs presented on Self-esteem (this is so mongs, always so full of confidence) . Teck presented on PAP (he is like entertaining la - farnie? ..tho it was such a serious topic). I presented on daydreaming and dreaming at nite~ heh.. how fun! My presentation was last min..I only printed out the info in the morning b4 leaving for school and did the pointers in class. hahas. It would be xuan's turn on thurs.. She will be presenting on sleeping position. Interesting! i realized that 3 of us (mong, xuan n I) chose topics that are related to character and psychology.

Yeahs! hope to put up many many pics~ :)