sadness
i am feeling really terrible now. i guess i am down with a cold. The feeling sucks cuz i m feeling really lethargic and giddy. And, i hafta miss my prep camp for scamp. Feeling realli paiseh for that.
That aside. I went out with amanda on tuesday. Met up to buy stuffe at chinatown. I was late as usual. Mmm.. then we walked our wae down from china town to suntec then down to bugis for dinner. Then from bugis, we walked to kallang mrt station. I wonder... On our way, we were chating about a lot of stuffe. About her decision over her relationship and i pondered upon mine at that time. oct 2005 when i decided to let go of it with confidence that our relationship wasnt wking out due to miscommunication. I was asked if i regretted. Yes but if i were to go back to then, my decision will still be the same.
My heart is aching. Really aching these few days cuz i duno y i haf been missing him. The times or him? Till yesterday, when i confirmed with amanda that he is totally over, i felt an immense heartache. I wonder.. I tot i had prepared myself for this day but my heart ached more than i could imagine i am capable of feeling. It really hurts. I came to a point that i couldnt stop crying last night before sleep. I duno why. This morning, i started crying again. If it hurts so much, does it mean that u still matter to me? argh. lost or wad, i dunoe. This is what i call i 'u pay for ur own actions'. Oh wells. My life is such a mess.
Thats y i kept telling amanda not to make the same mistake that i had. I hope u guys will turn out fine at the end of the day depite ur current decision ya?
Ok, enuff of all these. Aza hailing! BAXIA!
Singapore Poolz
yup people, i am currently working at singapore pools as a CSR, under the dept of telebetting. Basically picking up calls and placing bets for the gamblers... hahahs.. oh wells...
There was this guy who actually bet on the Singapore vs M'sia game with the stake of $3000 for a bet. Madness. So much money give me lah. Wah lao.... buy luck y nt buy me.. I am a living goddess of luck lohs. Should just invest in me, long term investment mah. Looks, brains, class, humor, style, u name it, i have it. Much better than buying LUCK! wad onli lah. hahas.. wadeva
I was working on the shift alone. Made 2 new fwens? Fwens? maybe not la. Just know them by name . One is cheryl the other is wee long. Wee long knows amanda too. yA.. singapore is just so small...
Yesterday! ahas. i was the only odd one out who do not have any newbie to share cab with me to go home. That left me with no choice but to share cab with the seniors, Anna and marianne. As they wana go supper as in the seniors, i hafta go too or i will deprive them their supper. So, i ended up going supper with : viera, seetoh, ah beng (tts wad they call him, i duno wads his name), Eugene, anna, siti, winston and pual. All of the are like smokers. i became one cuz i breathe in.. yucks! Oh ya.. ting u shd see their expression when they asked me my age.. hahas. When i said...erm. going 20, they were like -gasps- so young. hahahs.. Newae, hafta thank seetoh for treating the prata! :)
Ohoh, Ting, u noe hor, i found more flirtatious guys there. Tell u who when we work the same shift. And the flirt was there, he veri act cute.. cmi. The mei(4) li(4) guy was there too and he listened in to my call too.. hahas
There was this trainee who got scolded and she cried. Another trainee was so sian diao cuz she felt that she was totally being picked on for the very minor mistakes which she thought that she was in no wrong at all and all the mistakes are merely because of her being inconsistent in her read back. Oh wells, thats the working world when u are still under training. If u are being corrected, just keep quiet and accept it, ur life wld be much easier that wae.
Second half of my working day could obnle by described by one word: anti-social. I was so quiet and was daydreaming my day away. So bored that i started doodling and some asked me if i was aslp. Pual asked if i am bored and y am i folding my arms. I told him ' ya, i m bored and i m anti social.' hahas. i tink that kinda of reply is only entitled to guys. ahahs. I guess they think that i am a quiet gal. Go on and continue to be decieved. heee... Just that i dun lk to talk much to strangers, prefer to listen cuz i want to protect myself. Thanks for the lesson i have learnt recently. Talking too much harms.
I only get to reach home at about 5am aft the supper or breakfast u call it. Then slpt at 6. Cuz of the aircon, i din get the slp well and got awaken by my grandma early in the morning. It means bad mood for the whole dae due to insufficient sleep. Argh.. pissed. BTW, grandma n big uncle will be living with us for a period of time So ya. hope that i can get enuff slp soon.
Orite. i have been missing someone a lot recently. I guess its hard to break the habit. Oh wells, wae to go hai ling! It's bad being sentimental sometimes...
