BBooos!
I am having more n more DeJavUs recently. I wonder why. Things occurred in my dreams are renacted in reality. wahahas! I only hope 1 dream comes true.
I was watching TEBEE (TV) that day, one person said," Think of what you want 30mins b4 u sleep, ur wish would come true eventually (taking the chinese proverb mei(3) meng(4) chen(2) zhen(1)) as a reference to this action." hahas.. IF this helps, everyone should do this n stay home n one day, u will b so darn rich! hahas.. oook ... shant make fun of this line. I guess what the person is trying to said that if u tink of wad u want everyday before you sleep, you get to motivation to work toward it and eventually, TADA, sweet dreams become THE reality.....
Anyway, for your information, i have been addicted to those fortune telling programmes for a period of time adi, (since I started uni and had a period of low), and these days, all the tarot and fortune telling thingy i choose these few weeks have been related to being able to get out of my singlehood and by .....ahahhashs! So intereting. However, looking at my current situation , is a 95:5. having 95 to be the not possible.
Voodooowooodooowululu, may my lovely wish come true... hahah! Ok
11th oh 11th, pls come soon, let me let me fly off soon.
Guangzhou~ Here i come, wait ya~~
As a matter of fact, boredom, deep thoughts, confusion and constant reoccuring dreams at night...
i miss u? i miss u not? I miss u? I miss u not? With the lessening of petals, Fine I miss you.
When there is nothing left
Yeaps. When there is nothing left? What is the subject of this line? My blog? My life? My world? My feelings or wad?
Hhahahas! For me to know and for u to not find out but guess:)
Things are just so weird. Life is just so wonderful? I cant think of a negative word to describe 'wonderful'. Great (with sacarsm).
I recovered from THE shock (rejoice) and it once again sets me thinking. Recovery vs want? After THE recovery, i pondered, isit a guilt that created the sudden want n impulse to atone OR isit still there? Several days later from the truth, i felt better emotionally and yt, i felt worse mentally. Once again, i tink i consider too much b4 i do anything. Tts y i always choose to give up whenever THE matter is concerned.
I think one phrase describes me totally now: YOU(2) Kou(3) Nan(2) Yan(2)
Hahahas.. wadever
Someone once mentioned to me," You only blog when u r feeling upset."
This line is etched in me till now as i din realize it until it was mentioned to me.
Right, blogging down all these is not to gain sympathy from the public(like i care, not like i love to get pite. haha) but it just acts as a form of outlet; to vent out my sadness cuz i dun wana yell at THE person. Y not blogging down the happie stuff? TO all those who made and make me happy, just wana tell u people that the happy stuff are not meant to be shared publicly but to keep in my heart n vividly recorded in my mind for replaying :)
Right Now, I can only say that my mood is recovering much faster than i thought i could. No worry to all those who cared and most importantly still caring. Hee. Love you guys.
For the matter which made me sad, i can only say that it boiled down to me being lazy to explain anything from the beginning, thinking that leaving everything and every actions unsaid and unexplained is the best. However, I recieved adverse effects. Who doesnt know communication is the most important thing in life to get things done and get misunderstandings cleared? Rethorically, noone does it. Most preferred to keep everything unsaid OR, not knowing how to get started. Then pride and embarassment got in the way and lalala.. back to zero point. This is how u get into shit in live.
Whatever it is, another person said to me" you are frank to everyone other than urself". How true it is. But it's too late to realise i m such a person. Then other person i know (whoever it is going to be) will tell me " it's nv too late"
I guess what i need is not consolation but truth. Though truth only reveals with time, i hope, this time round, time is not the 'boundless' factor.
When it's known...
If u guys realized, my last entry was dated perhaps, in March? isit? I dun remember.
Let me tell u a line i chance upon,
"It's pride that brings u far and it's pride that tears you down."
Irony or pun?
HAha. It's not at all an irony cuz it's totally true. When pride is concerned, it
keeps you from seeing the truth, stopping you from knowing what you want.
Pride - Lethal.
When thoughts no longer flow, When feelings no long glow
when smiles no longer bloom, when hopes came to doom....
